HEY THERE!
I'm finally, finally back!
A lot of things has been going on in the past month or so..
But, you know what is THE BIGGEST thing that happened?
Khalid left.
He left to Canada, Vancouver to study.
Recap:
When he was in Canada in the summer, taking a language course, he loved it there.
His lifestyle got so much better, he learned so many things–of which he wouldn't have learned by being here–, he met new people, he was busy and everyday was filled with accomplishments (big and small). So, when he came back, he decided that he wanted to go and study for his Bachelor's degree in Canada.
He left on January 15th, 2015.
My family and I spent the day with him and took him to the airport to bid our good-byes.
We spent a wonderful, yet a very saddening, day that day.
Nevertheless, it was an amazing day, and well spent as well.
I was supposed to finish making this video the same night he left, but something always comes in the way, and even when I'm near finishing it, it doesn't feel..enough.
I finished it once and then deleted the whole thing and started over.
I don't know why I did that exactly.
Maybe it just feels too special that nothing seems good enough for the meaning of that day to me?
Or maybe, just maybe, because my hand was way too shaky in all the videos for me to find appropriate parts to put together?
Haha! I don't know..
Anyways,
Here's the mushy part;
Khalid is my other half.
He is my first ever best friend, he is the only person in the world that knows me better than anyone and actually accepts me fully for who I am.
I am most fortunate for having him in my life.
He's not just my sibling.
Khalid is my brother,
my twin,
and my bestest friend.
Always and forever.
Khalid,
If you're reading this,
these words are for you,
because they are true,
and they are for you.
This poem is one of my most favorite things. Ever.
It was written by a poet to an unknown person.
But right now,
they are from me
to you.
“i carry your heart with me
i carry it in my heart
i am never without it
anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,
my darling
i fear no fate
for you are my fate,
my sweet
i want no world
for beautiful you are my world,
my true
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky
of a tree called life;
which grows
higher than soul can hope
or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart”
