I love you.

HEY THERE!

I'm finally, finally back!

A lot of things has been going on in the past month or so..

But, you know what is THE BIGGEST thing that happened?

Khalid left.

He left to Canada, Vancouver to study.

Recap:

When he was in Canada in the summer, taking a language course, he loved it there.
His lifestyle got so much better, he learned so many things–of which he wouldn't have learned by being here–, he met new people, he was busy and everyday was filled with accomplishments (big and small). So, when he came back, he decided that he wanted to go and study for his Bachelor's degree in Canada.

He left on January 15th, 2015.

My family and I spent the day with him and took him to the airport to bid our good-byes.

We spent a wonderful, yet a very saddening, day that day.

Nevertheless, it was an amazing day, and well spent as well.

I was supposed to finish making this video the same night he left, but something always comes in the way, and even when I'm near finishing it, it doesn't feel..enough.

I finished it once and then deleted the whole thing and started over.

I don't know why I did that exactly.

Maybe it just feels too special that nothing seems good enough for the meaning of that day to me?

Or maybe, just maybe, because my hand was way too shaky in all the videos for me to find appropriate parts to put together?

Haha! I don't know..

Anyways,

Here's the mushy part;

Khalid is my other half.

He is my first ever best friend, he is the only person in the world that knows me better than anyone and actually accepts me fully for who I am.

I am most fortunate for having him in my life.

He's not just my sibling.

Khalid is my brother,

my twin,

and my bestest friend.

Always and forever.

Khalid,

If you're reading this,

these words are for you,

because they are true,

and they are for you.

This poem is one of my most favorite things. Ever.

It was written by a poet to an unknown person.

But right now,

they are from me

to you.

“i carry your heart with me

i carry it in my heart

i am never without it

anywhere i go you go, my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing,

my darling

i fear no fate

for you are my fate,

my sweet

i want no world

for beautiful you are my world,

my true

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

here is the root of the root

and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky 

of a tree called life;

which grows

higher than soul can hope

or mind can hide

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart

i carry it in my heart”